pennyjane's blog
to renew the blog. seems things have gotten awfully quiet. i'd be interested in hearing from any and all mtf transsexuals about their personal feelings on female impersonation as entertainment. i'm not talking about drag queens or people who do drag. no moral judgement, just how you feel you are personally affected by the place of drag in our society. i specify mtf transsexuals because i am interested in their opinions. i believe there is a different dynamic involved in how crossdressers and transvestites experience drag so for this limited conversation i'd like to hear from ts's only.
i just saw a good one here. "you must be the change you wish to see in the world." -ghandi now that's something we can use every day. i get so doggone frustrated with tg's sometimes. went to a support meeting down here in bloomington the other day. nothing but a bunch of whining and lamenting all the wrongs in the world. sure the world is tough, always has been and always will be, but where did we ever get the idea that we are entitled to justice, happiness and success? only true justice any of us will ever get is gonna come from God and that will be in another time and dimension. when i offer a positive approach to living all i hear is, "yeah, but you don't understand how rough things are for me!" everybody on earth can't possible have lived the most horrible life ever.
today has been a very special day for me, one i'm sure will be kept very close to my heart for a long time to come. about two and a half years ago when my transition began i found myself without a church. the church i'd been attending for the past five years or so asked me to leave. the reasoning given to me was that i would be a distraction. these were people i'd worked and worshiped very closely with. attended bible studies and seminars, did missionary work with, socialized with away from church. it was a horrible shock then when i was kicked out of the fold. and since that day not one member of the old congregation has bothered to make any contact with me at all.
ok, nick, here we go again. trans 101 talk. i've just spent a couple of days online talking with a girl who is thinking hard about transitioning. she has told me about how she just swoons over the idea of presenting female. during the course of this extended conversation hrt came up. i advised her as to the limitations of the feminizing effect of hrt, that it's no panasea. i told her that the pyhsical changes while substantial in ways often fall short of expectations in girls who want alot of change. she told me that the physical changes were were not the primary motivation for her desiring hrt, she really wanted to quash the masculine feelings she keeps having.
as evidence of the geriatric ability to learn i submit the following: Since it's inception i have never been quite able to get my arms wrapped around the term "compassionate conservative". I understood conservative, i thought, but the only adjectives i could connect with the term were, fiscal, social and the good old barry goldwater form, libertarian. i always sort of liked that one. anyway, i think this past friday our president's talk on tv presented me with an epiphany, i think i get it now. compassion from the conservative movement means adjusting themselves in communication to the more liberal understanding of language.
...that someday we will all be measured not by the color of our dress but by the content of our character...
